So recently i thought that i've found "the one"... the guy that i was looking for all this time.
 
People often ask me "what is your type?"
I'd say i don't have a type.  

Which is of course a lie because everyone have a "type".

I met him in a place which i often hang out and one day, i so happen to see my friend there.
He was there with my friend.

We hit it off right away (again, my own thoughts). He was so genunie. I have never met a guy who is sincere and genunie, He wasn't "trying hard to impress" which is where MOST guys go wrong.
Towards the end of the night, he handed his business card to me. BUSINESS CARD. WHAT WAS I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH IT?

Ok, i take it that he wasn't trying to be cheesy and didn't have the balls to get my number.

FINE. i will do the dirty work.

I emailed him a few days after.... and he replied. i didn't write back.

He did not write again.

6 months later. 

i forwarded one of those funny email to him (together with some others on BCC) 
He wrote back and ask me how i am.  I was delighted! (decided to end the 'play hard to get game')

I replied and some emails to and fro.

One day, he asked me out. I said okay (duh!). 

The date went quite well (i assume) and i confirmed that i liked him because he was everything i am looking for. Smart, funny and hardworking...

At the end of the date (my friend was there to join me later), he didn't even see me off in the cab! Major points lost there.
Guys doesn't wave their date goodbye anymore? It is like he can't wait to end it all (or maybe he was :( )

Anyway, that was it. He didn't even text me after that. 

I was the one who texted him FIRST about something really casual. He replied.
I didn't "bother" to write back.

brokenhearted :(

It's okay if we are not romantically inclined. It will be nice if we can be real friends...  
 

Haha that was an exaggeration but you know what I mean. I am not the kind who "sits around waiting for something to happen".

I want to know how to it feels like for someone to care for you again. Someone who is interested to know how your day goes. Someone to hold your hand and feel the warmth. Someone who touches my heart and bring it to life again.

God, I want to meet this person. Like right now.

I want to know how to it feels like for someone to care for you again. Someone who is interested to know how your day goes. Someone to hold your hand and feel the warmth. Someone who touches my heart and bring it to life again.

God, I want to meet this person. Like right now.

Ok the story goes like this.

I was introduced to a guy the other day. He was very sweet and smart and we had a nice conversation  
Towards the end of the night, he hands me his business card.

Business card! Wth.

I hate it when things always ended up with a business card. What do you think i was going to do with it really?
Business card just means that he was interested but NOT interested enough to ask for your number.

Com on. Don't tell me the BS that girls should take the initiative or someone had to make the first move. 

Fine. He was a good character and i couldn't let it go . I HAD TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE.

I dropped a note to his work email address using my work email address. Since he prefers to keep it "business" i shall do it the political way. I tried to keep it non-chalant  and causal "Hey, how are you...thought that i will drop you an email to say Hello. hope you had a good week ahead. Weekend is not too far from here!"

That was extacly what i wrote.

I tried really hard not to click on "Send or Recieve Now" every 5 second to refresh my Inbox.

3 hours later he replied, "apologies that i was caught up in the morning...it was good to meet you the other day.* insert some random opening line ** He told me what he was doing on Saturday and asked what will i be doing over the weekends".

IF YOU ALREADY HAVE PLANS FOR THE WEEKEND WHY THE HELL DO YOU ASK ME WHAT WILL I BE DOING AS IT IS JOLLY NONE OF YOUR BZ!

Ok, i decided that i shall not reply him and move on.

Well. although i did pray to God that i wished he will follow up...

How's everyone? It's been a while...but i guess this is something good :)

The start of this year, i promised myself that i will not let the year fade away without me realising it.
I have planned my travel up till July :) So far so good. I told myself that this will be a year of fullilment and self-discovery. I will find myself and get back on my feet. 

It has been 1 year . Each time as i think about you now, it just seems so clear that i was right to do what i did.
I have never believed in Love and you just prove me right. That's ok. I don't need Love to survive. I am not one of those girls.
I started out with nothing, so i am back to where i am.

There are secrets which i hold. Secrets which will break everyone apart. I will bring this secret to my grave if i have to.
God has his reason for letting me know and i will hold on to this and find peace from within. 

I will forgive. But i don't forget.


Yours truly.  

Today, i met someone who reminded me of him.
He speaks like him and smells like him. They used the same perfume. They came from the same place.
I almost wanted to cry there and then. 

I held it on until i leave the place. I closed my eyes. and let the wind blow in my face for a minute.
 
God, it's been a year. nothing has changed a bit.

All i have are just memories of this person who doesn't exist in my life no more. This is getting riddiculous.
I told myself many times that i know that this was coming. This was not unexpected.

I just beg that he will remember me. If he walks past our fav restaurant, he will be reminded of me.

I met him last Christmas and we had dinner together. We talked for 4 hours way past midnight. That was our first date.
We met up again 2 days later and we took a picture under the tree. We shared a dessert and i told you that i love cakes.

We had sticky date.

We went so many places together... Raffles Hotel to have Singapore Sling, Latern @ Fullerton Bay Hotel, St Regis hotel, Kudeta @ MBS, Ricciotti ....